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And I take it you wouldn't like the opportunity to reconsider.
Your file's not exactly uninteresting, by the way. "Emotionally unstable". Gosh.
Your file's not exactly uninteresting, by the way. "Emotionally unstable". Gosh.
And I want a pony and my freedom and my home. Your point?
I'm not interested in anything from your file.
[Tough crowd, wow. And he is interested, but not at that price.]
[Tough crowd, wow. And he is interested, but not at that price.]
Maybe I should start guessing? That could be fun.
[ thing is, he knows what 'closet case' means, and he knows acutely how easily that could have been plastered onto his file, and after staring at said file and drinking himself into oblivion for a while, and then getting frustrated over how much it even bothered him at all, it just feels better to make someone else deal with his problem. If it were Jack someone was doing this too, he'd be halfway to stabbing them right now.
Emotionally unstable indeed. ]
[ thing is, he knows what 'closet case' means, and he knows acutely how easily that could have been plastered onto his file, and after staring at said file and drinking himself into oblivion for a while, and then getting frustrated over how much it even bothered him at all, it just feels better to make someone else deal with his problem. If it were Jack someone was doing this too, he'd be halfway to stabbing them right now.
Emotionally unstable indeed. ]
[And Simon—well, let's say he's spent a lot of time staring at that file, with his head in his hands. It's all terribly private, and some of it he's not sure how they knew, and he's hidden it all since he was eighteen.
The sharks were good for his perspective, and he's told himself it doesn't matter here. But clearly it does matter.]
If you think that file is an objective description of me, I can't stop you filling up my inbox. It's your afternoon, and it's apt to be a very long one. Go wild.
The sharks were good for his perspective, and he's told himself it doesn't matter here. But clearly it does matter.]
If you think that file is an objective description of me, I can't stop you filling up my inbox. It's your afternoon, and it's apt to be a very long one. Go wild.
I think yours is about as objective as mine is, meaning they're taking the bits and pieces you don't want seen out and painting them as frankly as possible, like a goddamn medical evaluation.
[ 2/2 ]
As if you're not fucking terrified that some part of why you buried it back home is going to seep through here. Too late to cover it back up now.
[ 2/2 ]
As if you're not fucking terrified that some part of why you buried it back home is going to seep through here. Too late to cover it back up now.
I suppose I did tell you to go wild.
[and, shortly afterward, another message. He is not terrified. Except he really is; he feels desperately exposed.
And what do exposed animals do? They attack.]
You know, given your own file, I'm surprised _that_ was the element you picked on. Perhaps it seemed an easy target? I would have asked about the ruling class business.
But you know how it is.
[and, shortly afterward, another message. He is not terrified. Except he really is; he feels desperately exposed.
And what do exposed animals do? They attack.]
You know, given your own file, I'm surprised _that_ was the element you picked on. Perhaps it seemed an easy target? I would have asked about the ruling class business.
But you know how it is.
[[from here]]
It looks so old. And they've put us practically in its shadow.
Which suggests either there are many of them, or there's something here they want. Something nearby.
It looks so old. And they've put us practically in its shadow.
Which suggests either there are many of them, or there's something here they want. Something nearby.
It makes me wonder what else is out there.
Who built it in the first place.
Who built it in the first place.
And why they're destroying it.
It seems sinister as hell. But that's no basis for judgement.
It seems sinister as hell. But that's no basis for judgement.
No way to know.
It could be left over from a civilization that doesn't exist any more.
It could be left over from a civilization that doesn't exist any more.
But then it's archaeology. It should be preserved.
Truth be told, the lights alarm me more than the statue itself. If we're at the base of an active volcano, I'll be asking for my money back.
Truth be told, the lights alarm me more than the statue itself. If we're at the base of an active volcano, I'll be asking for my money back.
I know enough about ruling to last me a lifetime.
[ He knows those in high places have secrets they can't afford to expose. He knows he couldn't so much as breathe that he'd rather kiss boys than girls, because for a King, it was impossible. It was a disgrace. Wrestle it down, numb it with ice. 'You cannot be what God made you, not if you mean to take my place'.
He knows keeping that secret damned him and the only person he'd actually loved. ]
I want to know about you, Simon. I want to know what makes you so desperate.
[ He knows those in high places have secrets they can't afford to expose. He knows he couldn't so much as breathe that he'd rather kiss boys than girls, because for a King, it was impossible. It was a disgrace. Wrestle it down, numb it with ice. 'You cannot be what God made you, not if you mean to take my place'.
He knows keeping that secret damned him and the only person he'd actually loved. ]
I want to know about you, Simon. I want to know what makes you so desperate.
[Simon thinks for a very long time before he replies, and that delay will give the lie to the casualness of what he sends. And even then, it's not a confession but another attack.
He's not ashamed of himself; he won't be, no matter what's in his past. He's not ashamed of Yuki; he'd die first. But it always gets so complicated when people know. And Yuki had insisted, and Simon had made him a promise. Nobody needs to know, Simon. It's just the two of us, right? It's special.]
I'm not desperate. Far from it. If you were hoping to distract yourself this evening, you'll have to look elsewhere.
Whatever you're hiding is no concern of mine. [And yet... people do know. It's obvious, right there in public. And what is Simon going to do about it?]
He's not ashamed of himself; he won't be, no matter what's in his past. He's not ashamed of Yuki; he'd die first. But it always gets so complicated when people know. And Yuki had insisted, and Simon had made him a promise. Nobody needs to know, Simon. It's just the two of us, right? It's special.]
I'm not desperate. Far from it. If you were hoping to distract yourself this evening, you'll have to look elsewhere.
Whatever you're hiding is no concern of mine. [And yet... people do know. It's obvious, right there in public. And what is Simon going to do about it?]
Everyone's a little desperate.
[ Most of life is a rat race, it just is depending on what the topic is. But alright, he's done what damage he could here, and they'll be going in circles soon, so Jack'll move on. Well, almost all the damage he could. ]
Alright. Well, if you end up needing to talk to someone about how badly you don't want anyone to know you fuck men, I'm here for you, Simon.
[ :'| oops ]
Have a nice night.
[ Most of life is a rat race, it just is depending on what the topic is. But alright, he's done what damage he could here, and they'll be going in circles soon, so Jack'll move on. Well, almost all the damage he could. ]
Alright. Well, if you end up needing to talk to someone about how badly you don't want anyone to know you fuck men, I'm here for you, Simon.
[ :'| oops ]
Have a nice night.
[Simon stares at the message, sick and angry, humiliated and determined not to be. What he eventually sends back is quite short.]
Likewise, I'm sure. Do contact me when you eventually need advice.
Likewise, I'm sure. Do contact me when you eventually need advice.
Preservation isn't what we signed up for.
Considering we got dropped directly into the territories of three different types of hostile creatures, it really wouldn't surprise me.
Considering we got dropped directly into the territories of three different types of hostile creatures, it really wouldn't surprise me.
Perhaps.
Still, let's not seek trouble. A volcano would be tame, considering everything. Either we could outrun it in the rovers, or we couldn't.
[2/2]
Either that or it leaks undetectable poison gas.
Still, let's not seek trouble. A volcano would be tame, considering everything. Either we could outrun it in the rovers, or we couldn't.
[2/2]
Either that or it leaks undetectable poison gas.
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